again, call from him.

pergh..yesterday night, abang bomba in Kuch called me. asked where and when will i go back to Kuch. hang in there okay, sabar. wait till i have all of my things settle down, bok ku kuar ngan kau, tapi ku sikmok alang2, ku mok pegi tHe Spring, no MBO, but just belanja makan. no romance, no holding hands, no sweet talk, no NOTHING! we will go out just as friends, ex-colleague. nothing more. okay, i hope someday you will move on. cause i have learned moving on, not because of you, but because of my past experience. if i said no, then it is a NO. get it?

Birthday?

i flipped through the calendar yesterday and found out that the day after my birthday is Hari Raya Puasa. which mean, my birthday will be a busy day, for the muslims lah, and probably we're on holiday that week! i'm not quite sure if that week will be our semester break. if yes, then maybe i'm gonna spend my birthday time with my family. x jadi lah plan ku mok celebrate kat KBox tHe spring. 

i cant wait!

ngeeee~ i cant wait to celebrate my birthday this year!! *grin* ya, though this year i am not celebrating it with my family, but, i'm thrilled! i plan of celebrating my birthday at Kbox tHe Spring. yeah baby! and maybe a visit to MBO. 

just a plan. *but i really wished for it* tp, mun di takdirkan aku pokai sebelum birthday aku ya, *sigh* sokay la, maybe i just buy a cake for myself. tedah..who wouldn't want their 21 birthday to be grandly celebrated? plus, it will be my 21 birthday!! it's freedom! and it is when i can legally buy 4d number. lol.JK. no, i probably will try to learn to buy 4d and jackpot numbers. HAHA!! anyway, since my birthday fall on thursday, i thought of, try not to skip classes until my birthday, so i can skip classes on my big day. and i really hope at those times, me and my friends has already own a house. rented of course. 


Bebeng called yesterday, she told me about this vacant house at Sukma that can fit 10 person. i thought it was perfect at first, because i thought Bebeng will share her room with her boyfie. HAHA. but actually not. so his boyfie will have his own room. now, if the house has only 3 bedrooms, minus the room that Bebeng's boyfie has taken, there will be two room, and i already have in mind who will fit the house, there will be 9 of us- minus Raymond (Bebeng's boyfie). now, 9 people for 2 rooms?  eek?


well, we dont know much detailed about the house, but i'm expecting a house with good condition. i'm quite distracted actually, i kept thinking of our future house. ugh! darn. why do i let this house thingy spoiled my mood of my 21 birthday?? ggrrr.

HOLD ON GOOD CHARLOTTE

this is nice song for those who might need to be uplift.. one of me and my friends favourite song during Form 3, especially Felicia. miss her.

hold on if you feel like letting go.

track back

today, as i logged on to Facebook, nya dah ada function baru, Friend Finder. haiih.. malas ku ngga benda ya blegar kat news feed aku, ku mok close tp, i give it a try first. and guess who FB suggested to me? that motherfucker who removed me from his FB friend list. quite puzzled myself..
oh! bok ku ingat, no wonder FB suggest nya ngn aku, ri ya ku ada send email with my picture attached.duuhh..
anyway, he spitted me out. so, aku malas mok thegeh2 add nya blit. sbb dolok aku nok add nya. i know him, that's why i added him. nya org Kuching, tp dolok pnh transfer g Limbang. masa ya nya gik biak. he's 3 year junior bha. ignore jak.

i'm sorry

so sorry to that person, i've been ignoring his calls and sms-es for ( i think it's already more than a week ) i'm just not in the mood to reply him, SERIOUSLY. *sigh* sometimes i regret it for giving my num to a total stranger.


aduuhh..fyi, I'm not TEXTUALLY active person. i dont just ignores his calls and sms-es, i dont even care to touch my hp and reload it. I SWEAR! damn it. i wish i could just undo this mistakes i made.
gtg, actually, gtts. got to take shower. bye.

Facebook Amigos

what the heck! 1 friend request but no friend in mutual. doh! and what make it worst, no Hometown stated. I checked my email, and got email notification from this nigga who wants to be friend on Facebook. there's maybe 5 or more friends on my FB that has requested me with no friends in mutual. but anyway, i like got requested to become their friends. haha. and talking bout Facebook Amigos, i got updated by whatever reasons they appeared on my news feed.. 

and some did caught my attention with their posts, they shares link, they play games, and whatsoever. and of all that appeared on my news feed, i have read this post from a Facebook Amigos, O My Gaga, i am too ashamed to re-write it here. -_- heheh, jiwang karat pok! adeeehhh! umur lom gik masok 20 dah jiwang karat. i tell u, one day u will look back of what u have written today, and u will be ashamed with it. kalau iya pun soooo crazy in love, perlu kah post lam FB?? hahahaha. 
but, i must admit it too, sometimes it's best to express your feelings by posting it to your FB. dapat relieve sedikit sebanyak feeling kita. sometimes we just cant help ourself to post our anger, happiness or when you are feeling nervous and etc. . well, i did posted some of my angerness on my FB. *meanwhile i just posted something on FB, that says ; "say your prayer Argentina, German already scores their goal. :D haha. " my gosh, i used to ignored everything that has thing to do with FOOTBALL, cant believe i get excited over it too!! what the fnck! ok back to Facebook Amigos stuffy. ada juak some of fellow Facebook Amigos ya post something yang x sedap utk d baca. *salu mun org klakar, ~x sedap utk d dgr* ada la juak org nyindir2 org lain lam FB, huh aku pun kadang2 geram juak ngan stiap word cdak ya, nang x btapis alu. peduli la. ya pasal post. then, x kurang juak orang laki nok kenja2, flirting ngan aku. -_- damn, now here comes the flashback of guy nok ku bkenalan dr FB. and what annoys me most is when that certain guy that came flirting with has already taken.*dah ada gerek* some still available, but uugghh! they're just sooo not my type. there is this guy, salu la juak nya tgo aku, mun nya online, imagine, it is already past afternoon, still havent take his morning bath??! aiyoo.. u are no small kid anymore, u are aged 23! please get a life! 
huh. x kuasa ku mok layan lebih2 eh. and there is another guy, kenal dr FB juak, i kinda regret that i have given him my phone number. darn. rajin gilak message aku. dah aku tok jenis nok x brapa gilak mok b-msg. O my Goodness! he's Mirian, keja sbg Bomba *another Bomba hook-up, doh!* kat airport miri. nyesal aku brik no tpon ngn nya. because what? i swear, i'm just not that ready to have a relationship especially, when u only get contact with each other just by telephone and has never yet see each other. well, he has not pop out that Q of; will you be my girlfriend? but he already speaked and planned to buy me a necklace that has my name on it. O My Goodness!! stop it! be real dude! u havent see the real me, and now u already planned of buying me a necklace? no high hopes dude. dont put too much hope okay. i dont know la, actually masa ku kenal ngan c A *bukan nama sbnr* pun sama juak bha, kenal dr FB then mlarat smpe ke sms.tp masa ku bkawan ngn c A, x pulak ku boring or fed up sms ngan nya. tp nok laki keja bomba ya, aku dah nait fed up, and boring. huh, i guess c A ya pnde ambik hati kot, i mean, nya x control bha, nya pnde molah lawak, and nang best la. tp laki keja bomba ya, adoh. ntah la, x pnde ku mok mdh apa. too romantic kot. huh! malas ah.

Tokio Hotel - World Behind My Wall

they're telling me it's beautiful

i believe them but will i ever know

the world behind my wall

the sun will shine like never before

one day i will be ready to go

see the world behind my wall

double trouble

adoohh..dah ku trima sms dr c A (bukan nama sebenar) ri ya, malam marek ku trima call gik dari c B (bukan nama sbenar) A ngn B tok, dua dua ku dah buang dr FB aku, means aku xmok dak nya dalam hidup aku gik. dah sorang muncul balit, muncul gik nok sorang tok..adeehh!! 
tapi, anyway, hal ku ngan c A dah settle. c B tek kol aku kol 10 malam, nasib parent aku dah tido lam bilit, nya madah ngan aku, nya knek tok keja kat balai rah Padungan sia. adoohh..x bebas la ku bjalan kat Kuch tok klak..ney tauk tserempak ngan nya. ya ku malas mun tserempak ngan nya.*time ku klakar ngan nya ya, adik ku tukar channel, cun Adam Lambert blagu, nyanyi lagu Whataya Want From Me, sempat gik ku suroh adik ku iboh tukar channel, ku madah gik ngan c B, "kejap lok k. " * then i screamed for Adam and at the same time i ignored B, just so u know, i'm a HUGE and DIE-HARD FAN of Adam Lambert.*
 ri ya dah, masa Good Friday, nasib nya dah di dalam bas and nsib bas nya dah gerak, mun x konfem nya agak aku..fuuh! sib bait! tujuan c B kol aku tek, nya mok mbak aku kuar mun ku dah balit Kuch lak. PERGH!! aku dah brapa kali mnolak nya. hmmph..mybe i should not let him down, mybe aku patut brik muka ngan nya.
MAR, BOH SOMBONG GILAK! EVEN KAWU X SUKA NGAN NYA PUN, BOH SOMBONG NGAN NYA. AT LEAST YOU ARE GOING OUT WITH HIM AS FRIENDS. adeehh!! i'm STRESSED OUT! asa malas jak mok balit Kuch gik. ok la, i think i will go out with B, aku harap nya dah ada rambut time ya klak, sebab aku x suka kuar ngan laki BOTAK. hahaha! seriously. dah la nya ya x pnde klakar sarawak..tpaksa la klakar melayu sabah. eee, lelah ku klakar gia ngan nya klak eh. -_-