6th Dec

no post for yesterday. i'm just not in the mood. thought of going out, but right when i woke up, i looked at the phone, damn, it's already 11.29am! wtf. texted my dad while having brunch, and oh, i almost lost my voice yesterday and i told my dad that. come on, i'm a daddy's girl, i need attention from the father too of course. duuh!  
meanwhile back in Limbang, mom and my bro, Luis went to Labuan with my aunt, which technically, they're actually not in Limbang. @#$%^&!
okay today i went out. to tHe Spring. with Hanny, a Sabahan friend. i actually had planned to go there and have some blast with more friends, go to the MBO, to the KBox and sing like crazy. but, time is just so short and plus the small dinosaur sound i made. (-.-") so, i thought of just spending some money and use the voucher i had from Big Apple's calendar and bought donuts.
 oh ya, here's a glimpse of tHe Spring atmosphere. 

it feels like at the airport looking at the Fireflyz advertisement.

 red uhm-berella

ohh.. the view was nice, and the whole place was nicely and beautifully decorated. i just can't wait for Christmas. done bought a box of 6 pieces donuts from Big Apple, and then went to the Sarawak Plaza, and hunt for some apparels there. and i only bought a cardigan that my goodness cost me the world, ehem, bluffing, the price was RM53.90 after discount, mind you. 

okay, then walked from Sarawak Plaza, and indulged on Tira Cinno donuts along the waterfront.

and here goes,

6.56pm - called the transporter to come pick me up, he said, he'll call me back when he got his call from this other passanger.

7.05pm - still has no sign. shit. tonight i shall throw a tin full of red paint over his . . . oh wait, he called. he thought i was at the Sarawak Plaza, is he deaf or he is deaf? what the fuck man! i told you i waited at the bank you son of a biatch! half of an hour waiting had made me look like an idiot, an hour of waiting, sure made me look like a robber! sitting in front of the ATMs? my goodness!

7.35pm - finally reached home.

checked the email inbox, seriously? not even more than 5 emails of facebook notifications? after the whole day i've been away? my goodness, i must have been boring to you and you and you, huh?

okay, now i'm gonna have my shower.

next, gonna online like crazy tonight before i had my face facing the book tomorrow, and the day after tomorrow, and an exam paper the next day!  

please please please, don't let me go online these few days will you myself!?

chop my hand if i ever touch the laptop and the broadband. duh! 

DUDES in my life & of my life (or is it the same?)

DUDES! who the heck were they? well, i can't really mention their names in here. because i know now that someone has been stalking my blogs! You know who you are, right dude? *tap you on the shoulder* ;)
HAHAHA, you're reading my lotsa craps.
anyway, idk exactly what kind of dudes i wanna to talk about. 
recently, there is this Pinoy dude, who added me not long ago, asked me to become his girlfriend. i seriously laughed my ass off! lol. well, this Pinoy dude name is, .. .. mm, enough saying that we share the same 2nd name. :D
and too unlucky for that Pinoy dude, since i'm using Googie *cough*-Google Chrome, i had installed Facebook Chat History as my Googie extension. 
so, all of my chat history will be saved.
uh, have i mentioned AUTOMATICALLY? yes, whether i want it or not, it will saved on its own. so, be careful with your sayings. i can always check back our chat history. ^_^
so here is; 

i'm speechless and laughed my ass off!

uh, no? you don't think it's funny? at all?

well, no offense here. really. 
i'm bored, so i need to something to laugh of. :/
and there is another dude, i think from Pakistan, he claimed that his mother is local citizen, from Kuching. uh-huh? like i care?
i'm going to remove him soon. i'm sick of receiving friend requests with no mutual friends.(if you happen to read this) hey! don't remove me yet!
Likes in common would be fine, ya know, pages like Catholic Church, Picnik, and all that on Facebook. so, i don't really mind at all, if you find me through fan pages.
and by the way, long distance relationship won't work okay? 
and most important point of all, i'm not yet in the mood for L.O.V.E.
yes, i'm not interested. or better yet, don't even think of trying so hard. even if you look so dead gorgeous. 
man! i sounded like the princess! HAHAHA. lol. jual mahal kunu.
not because i'm sick of love stuffs and all that, i just don't think it's time.
so, fellas would be fine for me. don't even think of . . just don't.
ya know, like when you go to stores, i'm on display, but i'm not put up for sale. i belong to the stores owner.


mmm. hey, i thought we wanna talk about dudes in my life and of my life?
well, they're not in my life anyway. 
i guess, it ends here. 

hey, we're now advanced

lol. it's kinda funny when i see kids have a Facebook account of their own. imagine, my 9 years old brother also know how to use Facebook. but he don't really care much about his FB. and to my not-really-surprised, his school friends also have their FB accounts.
well, everyone is into FB now. it might be so wrong if you don't have one. 
i know this boy, from my sister. he's in love with my sister actually. 
still in his primary school. * i just sent him a private message asking how old is he, and he replied giving me a math questions, pfft*
he's in Primary 5 same as my sister. and also, he just sent me a relationship request, requesting to list me as his sister. pfft! kids!
this really pulling my legs. HAHAHAHA. kids nowadays are very spoiled. 
in fact, they are more lucky and advanced than how our times before. lol.
at their primary school, they had already own a handphone. back in our years, it's not that easy to own one, except for the rich kids. yeah, simply because their parents are really rich. 
i owned my first handphone, just before i was sitting for my SPM exam. but a cheap one of course. -.-'
Nokia 1600. well, that is all my family can afford me. i should be grateful. at least i can easily get in contact with my friends. my 2nd handphone was a Nokia too, 3110c. and yay to me, i bought it with my own money. 
i think it was 3rd month salary money. then, my 3rd phone is, SE K618i. i lost it 2 days after my birthday last year. *sigh* though not so cool phone, but i still miss it. :( my next phone is Nokia (again) and now i seriously forgot what type of model it is. i still owned it til now. and my current phone is, SE G900 that i bought last January.
kids nowadays are very lucky. simply take the example of my 9 year old brother. he get his first phone Sony W302 at the age of 8. yes, at the age of 8. and yes, a walkman phone.
pfft. every kids can afford one now. back in my years, it would be so cool if you own one. 
anyway, i hope they will not become so spoiled since everybody can now afford a hand phone at a very young age, and even a laptop since everybody is now into Facebook. *i'm sooo not that into FB anymore*

going back

seriously i now realized that my life in Kuching is waaaaay so different than my life back at home where i was with my family. 
i really wished i never had to go back here to Kuching. my life here is boring!
back at home (Mukah), i forgot that i had another life here. for a moment, i forgot everything. 
i forgot Kuching, i forgot that i hold the ***** college's student ID card. 
i forgot that i know this guy that i have relationship with that has to be kept secret. (which is now remained as history that never should be remember of!)
i just forget everything.
i really wished . . . . *sigh*
but now, i'm officially back to my life in Kuching.
ugh! i miss my brother, Luis. he brighten up my day.
Lord, could You please remind me each day that i'm doing this for the sake of my parents and my future?
Could You please pull me up whenever i am down and be there whenever i feel ignored?
Could You please let me know that there is still somebody who actually cares about me?
Could You please let me know that i'm worth more than everything else in this world and that i am too Your special creation?

sometimes i wondered, if anyone ever noticed me. 
hello? i'm martina. and you are . . ?
" i am patiently waiting for the best things to happen in my life "
when? will there be? don't let me get tired. please?