fall again

damn it. another fall. another crush. i saw him at distance.
dear Heart, can you just beat like normal? cos i can almost feel you popping out of my chest. Grrr.
what a loner me. When oh when? pfft. i'm so desperate. pathetic me.

one paper to three

just woke up from evening sleep. and annndd 
yes! done with my TITAS paper. okay three more papers to shoot. and can't wait to go home. :)
got to study my ass off tomorrow, before the "woodpecker" is home. -.- we need peace environment maaan, not your loud voice! grr
and oh, i just done ordering this yummylicious dress online.
can't wait for the arrival of the dress. 
oh okay, now, the voice of my dad is echoing in my head, saying, "don't waste too much money"
and this keep playing on my head! 
just this one dress please dad? *grin*
i wonder if the dress can manage arrive in time. 
oh, how i love going online shopping. *wink
and oh, they had reserved that red shades dress just for me! haha 

6th Dec

no post for yesterday. i'm just not in the mood. thought of going out, but right when i woke up, i looked at the phone, damn, it's already 11.29am! wtf. texted my dad while having brunch, and oh, i almost lost my voice yesterday and i told my dad that. come on, i'm a daddy's girl, i need attention from the father too of course. duuh!  
meanwhile back in Limbang, mom and my bro, Luis went to Labuan with my aunt, which technically, they're actually not in Limbang. @#$%^&!
okay today i went out. to tHe Spring. with Hanny, a Sabahan friend. i actually had planned to go there and have some blast with more friends, go to the MBO, to the KBox and sing like crazy. but, time is just so short and plus the small dinosaur sound i made. (-.-") so, i thought of just spending some money and use the voucher i had from Big Apple's calendar and bought donuts.
 oh ya, here's a glimpse of tHe Spring atmosphere. 

it feels like at the airport looking at the Fireflyz advertisement.

 red uhm-berella

ohh.. the view was nice, and the whole place was nicely and beautifully decorated. i just can't wait for Christmas. done bought a box of 6 pieces donuts from Big Apple, and then went to the Sarawak Plaza, and hunt for some apparels there. and i only bought a cardigan that my goodness cost me the world, ehem, bluffing, the price was RM53.90 after discount, mind you. 

okay, then walked from Sarawak Plaza, and indulged on Tira Cinno donuts along the waterfront.

and here goes,

6.56pm - called the transporter to come pick me up, he said, he'll call me back when he got his call from this other passanger.

7.05pm - still has no sign. shit. tonight i shall throw a tin full of red paint over his . . . oh wait, he called. he thought i was at the Sarawak Plaza, is he deaf or he is deaf? what the fuck man! i told you i waited at the bank you son of a biatch! half of an hour waiting had made me look like an idiot, an hour of waiting, sure made me look like a robber! sitting in front of the ATMs? my goodness!

7.35pm - finally reached home.

checked the email inbox, seriously? not even more than 5 emails of facebook notifications? after the whole day i've been away? my goodness, i must have been boring to you and you and you, huh?

okay, now i'm gonna have my shower.

next, gonna online like crazy tonight before i had my face facing the book tomorrow, and the day after tomorrow, and an exam paper the next day!  

please please please, don't let me go online these few days will you myself!?

chop my hand if i ever touch the laptop and the broadband. duh! 

early in the morning

eh. damn! sapa la mandi lama gilak ya! hoi! aku mok turun g kolej tok, mok cuci baju ku gik. eeeee.
damn, got back from the college at 10:38am, i directly go and checked the bank online hoping the money is there. but FAILED. shit. and meanwhile i got pending laundry to do. which is GREAT.
duit blom ada, and baju apa semua blom dicuci. mun petang tok pun blom masok juak, xtauk lah aku mok makan apa, bukan gik x tauk, tapi nang konfem x makan alu.

macam syiall

puki ayam, apahal elaun belom masok!? gggrrrr. i waited like hell, and i had checked many times. damn. goodness, it's friggin bored. i need to get out of this place.
okay, last night was creepy. i heard this dog barking down under our rented room, and the way it barks almost scared the shit out of me. seriously man! meanwhile, our windows was open wide, which is just great. pfft. my friends were already sleeping. and what makes it even more scary, the bark is so unusual and we never heard of any dog barking nights before, but yes, there are dogs around here. thank goodness, nothing happened.
i need to go to the college tomorrow. and i hope in the meantime, my allowance has been deposited.

REAL STALKER I AM

set the alarm at 7am, and i woke up at 6.50 am. went out at 8 something to withdraw some cash. ALONE. my friends were still sleeping, and still sleeping at this time, 11:05am. PFFT.
i managed to catch the bus, before 9am and got back around 9:34 something. and i still haven't had my brunch. :( from last night should i tell you. a very empty to the zero stomach. somebody feed me?
stalking in to someone's facebook right now. the guy who used to be my crush. ;) *wink*
my goodness, have anyone told you that you look like Jared Padalecki? haha. seriously man!
keep your hair that way. more people will come to recognizing your Jared Padalecki look alike. :p
i wonder how are you doing now. hope to see you this Christmas. :)

PFFT

could life have been much boring than this? i seriously don't get it.  I REALLY DON'T!
I DON'T GET YOU, I DON'T GET HER, I DON'T GET THEM. MY GOODNESS, i really feels like i'm being punish. FCUK THAT!! I REALLY AM PISSED.
YOU! - are you just going to lie there all day? come on! you're not dying! at least do something. it's been days. ugh. i sick more than you do watching you like that.
and YOU! - my GOODNESS, i don't know what you're made of, and i don't care. 
i really wish i could get out from this madness and craze. because the routines here started to become not normal. 
somebody take me out of here please?!
i really can't stand it anymore.

:(

i really feel guilty now, more over the yesterday matter, and today, i asked Dad to bank me some money. and my Mom just called me, asking why i asked for the money, she told me not to waste money and do study well, and not do other thing. sorry Mom, Dad. if i ever hurt or disappoint you two. i'm behaving well here, don't worry, i'm just having a little trouble on spending my monthly allowance here. (shame on me) 
after talking to Mom, the little bro shyfully asked me to buy a new phone. :/ *snort*
i didn't promise tho. but i'll try anyway. 
i just set up a new account on MySpace. actually it's my 2nd account.
and yay! i is now friends with Jason Reeves, Sam Tsui, and Colbie Caillat. 

21st November pt 2

i texted my dad, wishing him a happy birthday. instead of replying back, he did nothing. he didn't even call me back. right, what else could have i ask for. but mom called me instead. asking when will i go back from KCH. 
i really thought of going back on 20th Dec, cos i have planned on going to the Kuching waterfront to watch Christmas carols there on the 19th. but i'm not sure yet to go or not to go, since i am not confirmed whether i will got company or not. i don't want to go there alone at night for sure.
okay wait. this is fcuking boring la. too much of words here. okay cut that short.
mom asked me to go home, back to Limbang together with my Dad. 
my first thought on my mind was, " selamat duit aku,  sik perlu bayar tiket mahal balit Miri/great then i don't have to waste too much money on buying bus ticket to Miri " but then, i think back, damnnn, then the journey back will be triple tiring than going back straight from Kuching to Miri! SNAP! my journey will be, from Kuching to Mukah, then going out from Mukah to Miri. PFFFFFFFTTTTTTTTTTTT!!

142nd

what day is it anyway? why do i feel like today is Sunday? pfft.
woke up and looked at my hp, it's 10:40 am. what the fcuk?!
went out to and have a brunch. have to fork out some money, since we don't have gas stove, frying pan, etc, and not even a spoon! and i realized, i have a RM50 note, and a few ringgits. *snort*
why does it have to be all about money!?


my lil bro called me this afternoon, aww.. just a simple hello. he missed me. or so i thought. !?
he wanted to ask me something, but maybe too shy to tell me in front of mom and dad. so, he told me, he would text me later. i thought it was something to do with my promise of buying him a souvenir or toy from Kuch. then, he texted, asking me to return his RM10. 
*FAINT*
pfft! nowadays kids. but, it's okay, no big deal. i will return yours once i got back. 


OMG! i got stalker from Melaka! who are you!? *paranoid

not shocked enough look, but i got freaking shock just now,

when i got a friend request from this foreign stranger. was a bit excited, but then, ugh. sorry, i'm not being racist, but i am not accepting a total stranger especially from the foreign countries. 

just because we got lots of friends in mutual doesn't mean i'm going to accept you. if you wanted to be just friends on social network, lets just be friends, okay, please don't put on any hopes of becoming more than friends. it'll never going to be. and it'll never going to work just by contacting through the cyber world! 

you wish!

PFFFFFTTTT! 

GAY post

okay, that's it. i can't hold any longer. i'm getting sick with it. with what? let just keep this to myself.
went out today to accompany Rowena robbing the ATM this afternoon.
i saw a white Hummer passing me in front of the Hilton. damn. i almost cried. (seriously?)
i'm a die-hard fan of Hummer. wish that i own one. hmm, ($$$$$$$$) if you get what i mean in the brackets.
went to Parkson, and Sarawak Plaza. hmm.  ($$$$$$$$, again!)
*SNORT*
okay, YOU! i want a Hummer and a boyfriend for Christmas. NO DIDDLES! NO EXCUSES!


*GAY post? okay, which part is GAY to be exact?

140th

hmm. i seriously need SUGAR DADDIES to afford my airplane ticket. *snort*
uh, okay then, guess that i'll have to take a bus from Kuching directly to Miri. ughh. that will be so tiring. 
WHEN WILL I BECOME A MILLIONAIRE??!


i skipped my Financial Accounting class today. and let my two friends enjoy theirs. 
got no class tomorrow as usual, and so is the day after tomorrow. three days off from college. 

i want it so bad

like real BAD. i need new clothes, new jeggings, new shoes, new undies, new bras, new phone, new life, new . .  enough saying, everything new. 
i seriously need to go and find sugar daddies, or millionaires to adopt me. ehem, half serious.
how i wish my family hit the jackpot so i can go for shopping spree before going back this holiday.
seriously. 
i bought a dress last week, yep, for Christmas of course. *grin*
o Lord, let my family hit the jackpot, please please pleaseeee??

138th

to be true, i hate my life. surrounded by ignorant people is so not cool. and youngster should i add.
i shall quit my study after my final exam. i seriously mean it. i'll talk to dad. 
i just don't get their life routine. is this exactly what they do at homes? 
facing their lappie from morning until evening, 7:47 now, to be exact. pfft, get a life la you bitches.
what are you peoples? also an addiction to my so called wonderful life??
i don't know what i've sinned til i had to deserve this.
went to Financial Accounting class alone today, and went home alone too. just great.
and right after this i'm gonna go to take away food ALONE too.
what a life.

137th

oh goshhh.. it's been time, eh? 6 days without internet is like uh.. let's just spell it BORING.
i just paid my broadband bill this evening, only RM90 of RM140. which mean i still owing RM50. i was charged double for not paying back on time. i should have pay it right when i received my allowance. but anyway, double charge means i don't have to pay for Dec. if only i have pay it in full.
darn, i seriously have to go and find some yams to sell at the Sunday Market to cover up my daily expenses.
i met my guy friend right when i hop out from the bus once i arrived at my living area.
omg. stop being so pushy la you. and why do you have to make that sound, omg!! i nearly lost my appetite, i already lost it actually. and you make me feel like i wanted to cry right now, because you're an addition that makes my life more pathetic for seeing a guy like you. 
and oh, damn, i hate recalling back shits i don't want to remember. why do you have to mention those shits?! disgusted.  i got disgusted really.
you watch porns, i saw you. and still you don't want to admit. ugh.. 
and oh, if you wish to bring me out next time, please buy a car okay? a Hummer will do just fine. i mean a REAL one.
hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha!
oh yeah, i got extra followers. i'm gonna follow you back. :)

3 AM post

oh yeah, it's 3 am.
i don't know what to post, yeah since it's 3 am. wth..
right, just realized that i got another follower, i followed you back sweety. :)
anyway, i hardly go Facebooking now, i didn't remember that The Sims can be very addictive.
restless night yo. i can almost feel my eyes changing into panda's eyes. i play the shit since i was in secondary 3, and been looking for this game after i crashed it.
mm, dad sms-ed me yesterday, telling that he received my offer letter from Unisel.
so, daddy, what's on your mind?

1am post

hahahahahaha, i gotta post this! okay, i was about to turn off my lappie and go to sleep, but then i heard my friend uttering something who's sleeping now! i guess she's too tired that is why she talk in her sleep. lol.
mm, not funny? you gotta go for a sense of humor check up.

WOOHOOOOOOO

Oh yeah baby. i've been waiting for you like ages ago, 
i heart you The Sims 3. haha i found it when i went to the PC shop somewhere near our living area. thank goodness it is successfully installed now in my lappie. wooohoooo, it's my long lost addiction, okay, so i guess soon Facebook will rank after The Sims 3. OMG, i'm still thrilled over it, and one more thing i might hardly go online after this, yeah, since i'm addicted to The Sims 3. 
XOXO

serious shit

currently busy downloading Korean drama Boys Over Flower soundtrack song videos from Youtube with book on my lap, HOLY SHIT, and the video was finished downloaded in 2 minutes! damn, last night i waited like hell.

anyway, i haven't done any revision for Microeconomic test later at 3. SCREWED.

1 to the 3 to the 1

okay, this seriously makes me laugh my ass off. actually i thought of taking an evening nap, since i've been on the internet for a long time.
okay back to the thing that makes me laugh, i was on Facebook using my lil brother's account. yeah, his account is under control of me. so, this fan page come out with their newly upload video, and i saw nobody had yet commented on the video, so i tried commenting on it, then checked it again, i was first to comment. hooray! haha. and the rest let the picture below tells you. click on the picture to get a full and clear view.

i just don't get it. why would they want to be first to comment? it's not like the fan page will give them any money. but in this case, i was just trying my luck, and see if anyone care to comment on the so-not-interesting video. pfft HUMAN. but somehow, it made my day tho. 

this is friggin funny. intended to take a nap, but nah, maybe later this night.