can i stay forever?

pergh..i'm so tired.got back from church then had breakfast, then go buy things.. my neck hurts. maybe ku salah tido semalam. dah la tido aher gik ya. ne ndak, gara-gara layan game KFC Tucky².. huhu.. dekat kol 1 bok benti main. in a blink of an eye, hari tok dah 1 Ogos, FRiendship Day is today. and what's more depressing is, i'm leaving in roughly 39 hrs. ugh! i hate to leave! the first time i left my family was exactly in August last year, it was quite hard. cause i'm going to a big city without my family accompany me. :( i still remember, i tried hard not to cry in the bus. i pretended to be okay, like it was just a small matter. but really, that is the first time i ever stay away from my family for a long period of time. then once i arrived to where the hostel is, i called my dad, damn, i just cant controlled it. i tried hard not to burst into tears. i just couldnt help. but i adjusted with times and places, and i got used. i'm quite a flexible person actually. maybe this long holiday just makes me hard to leave my family. balit tok klak, adoh.. pening gik palak pikir tok. pasal RUMAH. aie.. dah ya c Bebeng gik padah mok quit.. ergh!! i'm done, and i'm going to sleep. i'm just so sleepy and plus the nice weather to sleep in, it's raining here in Mukah.