oh my gaga..finally

pergh.. at last, ku jmpa juak ngan abg bomba padungan ya. wakakaka. i'm not excited, not nervous, NOTHING. besa2 jak. everytime i made contact with him, x kisah face to face ka, or on the phone ka, i naturally speak a bit ( okay, it's a lot ) like, kasar. ya,.

tadi time ku mok balit dari hostel demak laut sia pegi balit rumah, nya bok datang. aku greet nya, ~ Oi!. aku tek, benarnya mok plan mbak nya g raun d samariang sia, mok carik rumah nok kamekorg cari ya. but since it's already late, aku cancel la, malas ku mok nait moto malam2. nya madah, aku kecewakan nya. hahaha.. ada ku kesah? lol. i think he still have heart on me. too bad, i'm not and do not into you. i seriously cant consider you more. you are just a friend of mine. and that's it.
because i seriously and currently do not intend to involve in any relationship at the moment, - depends, but you? i'm sorry, i just cant.

anyway, aku ada bukak FB this guy, that i used to have a crush on. pergh. actually, it's more than just a crush. i really like him so much. he's Sabahan and my senior. nya ensem ka? idk. but he's okay la. okay looking. i still remember when i saw kissmarks on his neck,. pergh. hancur hatiku eh. :( dah la hari ya, aku ada hearing stage 3, - it's when you're absentism higher than 20%. hearing ya ku x kisah gilak. tapi since ku ngga kissmark nya ya, adoi.. mala jak ku pikir pasal ya. ya lah, duhal nya ada gerek, i thought he's single. :(

:: to be continued~
~maybe not.