Dilemma

that's it, i've made up my mind, i'm going to apply myself at UNISEL.
i know it's a bit late now, since i'm now in my 3rd semester. but what's the point if i can't do well in what i'm not good at? i'm good in English. *cough. um, maybe not too well. but at least it's the subject i can score at.
but here's another thing that's bugging if i ever quit to continue to Unisel - my Mara loan.
i hate bugging my parents with this problem of mine. ugh
i look through my pictures in my laptop, then i saw this screen shot of programmes that i had saved, and i saw the course i'm interested with, and the fee cost only RM13.5k.
fcuk! way cheaper than my current course. *snort* and the course duration, and i did other comparisons too.
then that made me thinking, that i'm going to apply myself in Diploma in TESL, and will quit if i ever got accepted (and if my dad would let me) and yeah, age been bugging me like hell, since my other friends are now either graduating diploma or taking degree.
okay so now, i officially say, FUCK AGE! haha, i'm going to further my studies no matter what.
for now i need to pray and ask God to give me signs whether this is the best for me.
it's the month of rosary prayer, and i have not pray once. pathetic. i got my rosary with me, but i never pray. gotta spend some time pray. and ask for signs.