early in the morning

eh. damn! sapa la mandi lama gilak ya! hoi! aku mok turun g kolej tok, mok cuci baju ku gik. eeeee.
damn, got back from the college at 10:38am, i directly go and checked the bank online hoping the money is there. but FAILED. shit. and meanwhile i got pending laundry to do. which is GREAT.
duit blom ada, and baju apa semua blom dicuci. mun petang tok pun blom masok juak, xtauk lah aku mok makan apa, bukan gik x tauk, tapi nang konfem x makan alu.

macam syiall

puki ayam, apahal elaun belom masok!? gggrrrr. i waited like hell, and i had checked many times. damn. goodness, it's friggin bored. i need to get out of this place.
okay, last night was creepy. i heard this dog barking down under our rented room, and the way it barks almost scared the shit out of me. seriously man! meanwhile, our windows was open wide, which is just great. pfft. my friends were already sleeping. and what makes it even more scary, the bark is so unusual and we never heard of any dog barking nights before, but yes, there are dogs around here. thank goodness, nothing happened.
i need to go to the college tomorrow. and i hope in the meantime, my allowance has been deposited.

REAL STALKER I AM

set the alarm at 7am, and i woke up at 6.50 am. went out at 8 something to withdraw some cash. ALONE. my friends were still sleeping, and still sleeping at this time, 11:05am. PFFT.
i managed to catch the bus, before 9am and got back around 9:34 something. and i still haven't had my brunch. :( from last night should i tell you. a very empty to the zero stomach. somebody feed me?
stalking in to someone's facebook right now. the guy who used to be my crush. ;) *wink*
my goodness, have anyone told you that you look like Jared Padalecki? haha. seriously man!
keep your hair that way. more people will come to recognizing your Jared Padalecki look alike. :p
i wonder how are you doing now. hope to see you this Christmas. :)

PFFT

could life have been much boring than this? i seriously don't get it.  I REALLY DON'T!
I DON'T GET YOU, I DON'T GET HER, I DON'T GET THEM. MY GOODNESS, i really feels like i'm being punish. FCUK THAT!! I REALLY AM PISSED.
YOU! - are you just going to lie there all day? come on! you're not dying! at least do something. it's been days. ugh. i sick more than you do watching you like that.
and YOU! - my GOODNESS, i don't know what you're made of, and i don't care. 
i really wish i could get out from this madness and craze. because the routines here started to become not normal. 
somebody take me out of here please?!
i really can't stand it anymore.

I'M PISSED

i just don't get it, what is wrong with you? yeah YOU! BLOGGER! i tried like hell trying to post something yesterday. PFFFTTT
ugh. seriously, these few days life recently is friggin boring! *snort*
i got no classes anymore, i skipped my last class today. So, in less than two weeks i'm going to face my final examination. and i haven't prepare anything yet. which is just so great.
okay, i wish i can swap my life with anyone who cares. :/ 
why does it have to be this boring? facebook isn't giving any entertainment too.
i'm almost bored to death.

"Just A Dream" by Nelly - Sam Tsui & Christina Grimmie

OMG!! i friggin love this song! i fell in love the first time i heard it! and the song keep playing in my head. it's stuck! and to be true, this song is way like waayyyy much better than the original one. gosh, this song really got me. i'm just addicted to it. and Sam Tsui, ugh, he's cute as usual. *wink* and oh, if i were a guy, i will surely fall in love with the female singer, Christina Grimmie. She's sooooo cute! and i love her hair. 

awwww, isn't she's cute??

and oh, Sam, the man who got my heart. <3

:(

i really feel guilty now, more over the yesterday matter, and today, i asked Dad to bank me some money. and my Mom just called me, asking why i asked for the money, she told me not to waste money and do study well, and not do other thing. sorry Mom, Dad. if i ever hurt or disappoint you two. i'm behaving well here, don't worry, i'm just having a little trouble on spending my monthly allowance here. (shame on me) 
after talking to Mom, the little bro shyfully asked me to buy a new phone. :/ *snort*
i didn't promise tho. but i'll try anyway. 
i just set up a new account on MySpace. actually it's my 2nd account.
and yay! i is now friends with Jason Reeves, Sam Tsui, and Colbie Caillat. 

My Bad, i'm sorry

i've been very pissed at someone and now i'm very upset with myself. could i have been much stupider than this?
i'm very sorry dear friend, sorry for not understanding you. i'm sorry for being selfish thinking of just myself.
ok, listen to me, i'm sorry for what i did before you know the reason why i did it tho, and i messed it all up. we all make mistakes, i had no idea what i was getting myself into, but i just wanted to say i am really sorry. :"(

21st November pt 2

i texted my dad, wishing him a happy birthday. instead of replying back, he did nothing. he didn't even call me back. right, what else could have i ask for. but mom called me instead. asking when will i go back from KCH. 
i really thought of going back on 20th Dec, cos i have planned on going to the Kuching waterfront to watch Christmas carols there on the 19th. but i'm not sure yet to go or not to go, since i am not confirmed whether i will got company or not. i don't want to go there alone at night for sure.
okay wait. this is fcuking boring la. too much of words here. okay cut that short.
mom asked me to go home, back to Limbang together with my Dad. 
my first thought on my mind was, " selamat duit aku,  sik perlu bayar tiket mahal balit Miri/great then i don't have to waste too much money on buying bus ticket to Miri " but then, i think back, damnnn, then the journey back will be triple tiring than going back straight from Kuching to Miri! SNAP! my journey will be, from Kuching to Mukah, then going out from Mukah to Miri. PFFFFFFFTTTTTTTTTTTT!!

21st November 2010

remembering someone special today. My dad. :"( 
i miss you dad. can't wait for holidays and see you, mom and the siblings. 
Happy birthday, daddy. May God showers you with blessing. Amen. :")

Lots of Love,
your daughter.

o my ghost!

OMG! again! stalker from Melaka! who are you? :/
*biting nails*
no class tomorrow, yippie! i'm going to sleep all day!
pfft. UNPRODUCTIVE.

143rd

143, used to be something meaningful. and it still is. i guess everybody knows 143. it's the ILY.
mm, okay, stop talking craps. 
these few days, i really lacked of sleep. but i don't really feel tired anyway. once i'm done with my Facebook, gonna start playing The Sims 3 again. hoho.
okay, i LIED on the part where i just said that i don't really feel tired, now i started to feel sleepy. seriously.
i tried logging in to my elder brother's account. FAILED. i tried and tried, but still FAILED. 
seems like he had his account password changed. great then, now i will never be able to stalk some people on his fb anymore. *pouting+snort*
7 friend requests on Facebook today. i started to wonder, was it because of my profile picture or ..

142nd

what day is it anyway? why do i feel like today is Sunday? pfft.
woke up and looked at my hp, it's 10:40 am. what the fcuk?!
went out to and have a brunch. have to fork out some money, since we don't have gas stove, frying pan, etc, and not even a spoon! and i realized, i have a RM50 note, and a few ringgits. *snort*
why does it have to be all about money!?


my lil bro called me this afternoon, aww.. just a simple hello. he missed me. or so i thought. !?
he wanted to ask me something, but maybe too shy to tell me in front of mom and dad. so, he told me, he would text me later. i thought it was something to do with my promise of buying him a souvenir or toy from Kuch. then, he texted, asking me to return his RM10. 
*FAINT*
pfft! nowadays kids. but, it's okay, no big deal. i will return yours once i got back. 


OMG! i got stalker from Melaka! who are you!? *paranoid

not shocked enough look, but i got freaking shock just now,

when i got a friend request from this foreign stranger. was a bit excited, but then, ugh. sorry, i'm not being racist, but i am not accepting a total stranger especially from the foreign countries. 

just because we got lots of friends in mutual doesn't mean i'm going to accept you. if you wanted to be just friends on social network, lets just be friends, okay, please don't put on any hopes of becoming more than friends. it'll never going to be. and it'll never going to work just by contacting through the cyber world! 

you wish!

PFFFFFTTTT! 

GAY post

okay, that's it. i can't hold any longer. i'm getting sick with it. with what? let just keep this to myself.
went out today to accompany Rowena robbing the ATM this afternoon.
i saw a white Hummer passing me in front of the Hilton. damn. i almost cried. (seriously?)
i'm a die-hard fan of Hummer. wish that i own one. hmm, ($$$$$$$$) if you get what i mean in the brackets.
went to Parkson, and Sarawak Plaza. hmm.  ($$$$$$$$, again!)
*SNORT*
okay, YOU! i want a Hummer and a boyfriend for Christmas. NO DIDDLES! NO EXCUSES!


*GAY post? okay, which part is GAY to be exact?

140th

hmm. i seriously need SUGAR DADDIES to afford my airplane ticket. *snort*
uh, okay then, guess that i'll have to take a bus from Kuching directly to Miri. ughh. that will be so tiring. 
WHEN WILL I BECOME A MILLIONAIRE??!


i skipped my Financial Accounting class today. and let my two friends enjoy theirs. 
got no class tomorrow as usual, and so is the day after tomorrow. three days off from college. 

i want it so bad

like real BAD. i need new clothes, new jeggings, new shoes, new undies, new bras, new phone, new life, new . .  enough saying, everything new. 
i seriously need to go and find sugar daddies, or millionaires to adopt me. ehem, half serious.
how i wish my family hit the jackpot so i can go for shopping spree before going back this holiday.
seriously. 
i bought a dress last week, yep, for Christmas of course. *grin*
o Lord, let my family hit the jackpot, please please pleaseeee??

138th

to be true, i hate my life. surrounded by ignorant people is so not cool. and youngster should i add.
i shall quit my study after my final exam. i seriously mean it. i'll talk to dad. 
i just don't get their life routine. is this exactly what they do at homes? 
facing their lappie from morning until evening, 7:47 now, to be exact. pfft, get a life la you bitches.
what are you peoples? also an addiction to my so called wonderful life??
i don't know what i've sinned til i had to deserve this.
went to Financial Accounting class alone today, and went home alone too. just great.
and right after this i'm gonna go to take away food ALONE too.
what a life.

137th

oh goshhh.. it's been time, eh? 6 days without internet is like uh.. let's just spell it BORING.
i just paid my broadband bill this evening, only RM90 of RM140. which mean i still owing RM50. i was charged double for not paying back on time. i should have pay it right when i received my allowance. but anyway, double charge means i don't have to pay for Dec. if only i have pay it in full.
darn, i seriously have to go and find some yams to sell at the Sunday Market to cover up my daily expenses.
i met my guy friend right when i hop out from the bus once i arrived at my living area.
omg. stop being so pushy la you. and why do you have to make that sound, omg!! i nearly lost my appetite, i already lost it actually. and you make me feel like i wanted to cry right now, because you're an addition that makes my life more pathetic for seeing a guy like you. 
and oh, damn, i hate recalling back shits i don't want to remember. why do you have to mention those shits?! disgusted.  i got disgusted really.
you watch porns, i saw you. and still you don't want to admit. ugh.. 
and oh, if you wish to bring me out next time, please buy a car okay? a Hummer will do just fine. i mean a REAL one.
hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha!
oh yeah, i got extra followers. i'm gonna follow you back. :)

3 AM post

oh yeah, it's 3 am.
i don't know what to post, yeah since it's 3 am. wth..
right, just realized that i got another follower, i followed you back sweety. :)
anyway, i hardly go Facebooking now, i didn't remember that The Sims can be very addictive.
restless night yo. i can almost feel my eyes changing into panda's eyes. i play the shit since i was in secondary 3, and been looking for this game after i crashed it.
mm, dad sms-ed me yesterday, telling that he received my offer letter from Unisel.
so, daddy, what's on your mind?

1am post

hahahahahaha, i gotta post this! okay, i was about to turn off my lappie and go to sleep, but then i heard my friend uttering something who's sleeping now! i guess she's too tired that is why she talk in her sleep. lol.
mm, not funny? you gotta go for a sense of humor check up.

WOOHOOOOOOO

Oh yeah baby. i've been waiting for you like ages ago, 
i heart you The Sims 3. haha i found it when i went to the PC shop somewhere near our living area. thank goodness it is successfully installed now in my lappie. wooohoooo, it's my long lost addiction, okay, so i guess soon Facebook will rank after The Sims 3. OMG, i'm still thrilled over it, and one more thing i might hardly go online after this, yeah, since i'm addicted to The Sims 3. 
XOXO

serious shit

currently busy downloading Korean drama Boys Over Flower soundtrack song videos from Youtube with book on my lap, HOLY SHIT, and the video was finished downloaded in 2 minutes! damn, last night i waited like hell.

anyway, i haven't done any revision for Microeconomic test later at 3. SCREWED.

All Soul's Day

7th January 2005. the day my beloved grandfather my father's side died. it's been 5 years since he left.
and according to Catholic calendar, today is All Soul's Day, a day to commemorates all of our departed one.
but not only my grandfather who had left, also my uncle, my grandmother of my father's side. and of my mother's side, my grandfather, and um, only. they are all i could think of that has gone. 
may they rest in eternal peace. Amen.

1 to the 3 to the 1

okay, this seriously makes me laugh my ass off. actually i thought of taking an evening nap, since i've been on the internet for a long time.
okay back to the thing that makes me laugh, i was on Facebook using my lil brother's account. yeah, his account is under control of me. so, this fan page come out with their newly upload video, and i saw nobody had yet commented on the video, so i tried commenting on it, then checked it again, i was first to comment. hooray! haha. and the rest let the picture below tells you. click on the picture to get a full and clear view.

i just don't get it. why would they want to be first to comment? it's not like the fan page will give them any money. but in this case, i was just trying my luck, and see if anyone care to comment on the so-not-interesting video. pfft HUMAN. but somehow, it made my day tho. 

this is friggin funny. intended to take a nap, but nah, maybe later this night.

130th

another post just after few minutes. i just realized i got extra 2 followers! hooray! 
thanks for following babes! i'm gonna follow you right away.


meanwhile, i'm still upset over my so called LIFE. sigghhh..

129th

bother me again, i'm gonna seriously kill you with MP7. not a fake one. 
don't know what is MP7? go Google it, you idiot!
she asked me to type her CV for the immigration post. i was like, what the hell??
all this time people got their government job by applying through SPA, not resume la buddy.
if people can do so, i might now work as Immigration Officer just by the help of my uncle who also works at Immigration Department and i won't be stuck here studying like hell.
HUMAN. no no, CHILDISH. IMMATURE.
and btw, i am waiting for an interview call from SPA, and yeah i did applied for immigration post too, so please la, be on Queue. i'm waiting like hell, how can you just simply get the job just by sending your CV?? NO FCUKING WAY! that's cheating. 
and YOU SPA, i'm still waiting like HELL, i applied jobs at you like ages ago, how come you never did call me for an interview? i'm so fucked up in my life, why can you not be nice with me too?
should i wait until when?? till my body rotten?
this is just sooo unfair.

128th

i just don't get some people. they added you and yet, they deleted you? what the heck was that supposed to mean? you're the one who added me, have you ever comment or like my status, my photos? No? You even never wish me happy birthday. your loss anyway, oh, i see, you got over 3k friends on your Facebook, so, deleting me won't make a huge like very huge different to your 3k sum of your friends. HUMAN.

one two seven

ugh, i really got annoyed. can't you just let me surf the net in peace? 
aiyaa, that's what you got when all you have in your mind is FACEBOOK, FACEBOOK, FACEBOOK, FACEBOOK, FACEBOOK, every second, every minute, every hour, every day, all daaaaayyy looonnggggg. and now you bother me asking how to calculate this, how to get this total, which debit, which credit. come on la, why making it more complicated?? geez. oh yeah, i just remember, you always and love to make a big fuss of such a small thing that just don't worth. 


anyway, i just checked my Unisel application, i got accepted. i don't know if i want to cheer or instead. erk. 
okay, now, i'm completely lost again. i just don't know to do, FCUK MY LIFE.