Tuesday y'all

i wish i could take this burden and throw it far far faaaarr awaaayyyy so far, that i don't have to think about it anymore. 
Dad, i'm sorry for causing you so much troubles since the day i was born, and i'm sorry i can't be the child you can be proud of. sigh..
if only i could tell you this myself. 
i handed the letter concerning my study loan to the college this evening, but i just simply had no idea how and what to tell my parent about it.
it's like a dead end. no way out, i'm stuck. and i can't even go back to where i had started.
i wish it was all easy just like what i've been dreaming of.
maybe life was not complicated at all, it was YOU, yeah ME. choices in life. uncertainty, expectations, ugh. it was tough. 
MONEY, I WISH YOU GROW ON TREES, IN NOTES PLEASE!
you could take my boyfriend, but please not my life, my future, my family. eh, wait, i don't have boyfriend. hahahahahaha
i wish i have a magic lamp i could rub on, and ask for my 3 wishes to come true.
IMPOSSIBLE.