where do i go from somewhere on earth?

i'm lost. before i had the chance to tell them my desire of quitting my study, i got shot. my dad lectured me. it's the worst feeling ever when somebody is hoping and rely to you but deep inside your heart, you just can't please them because the last thing you would ever wanted to do was to break and crush their high hopes. it's sucks. i know better. 
i'm depressed. distressed much. and i'm desperate. i really prayed and wished He at the above will land me any job. 
why can't my life be as normal as theirs?
i hate living in regrets. because i am living in one now. and it haunts me every day, every second and every minute.
i regretted for continuing my studies at the age where all my friends had already graduated with their diplomas and where some of them pursuing their degrees.
i regretted it all. even though for everything i have missed, i gained something else, but for everything i have gained, i missed something else. ironic.
i actually cried. yeah, i know. just by sitting and crying like baby won't get you anywhere. well i don't give a fuck. i just wanted to cry, i guess it's the only way to pour my heart out. 
it's what i felt the most comfy for me to do, keeping the problems just to myself.
i don't know if i'm like the other people where they keep their issues to themselves only waiting to explode. just like a lava boiling inside of a volcano waiting to erupt.
who knows if one day i could go crazy and lose my sanity for keeping this problems.
blah, i talk craps. 
i know i'm not pious, i'm sorry for praying to You to grant me my request only when i'm desperate for something.
in conclusion, my life sucks. and major failure. i felt like i just lose everything.
nothing is ever nice for me. GAH! my life is a misery, i'm miserable.