i stalk you

haha. i just done stalking somebody's Facebook profile. 

so funny la you. i have seen all of your pictures. not bad.

and i see one of your albums, and, DO YOU HAVE TO UPLOAD ALL THAT?? 

i laugh all the way while looking at your pictures. 

no. not laughing at your weirdness or stupidity. 

you're just funny. no. no offense.  :)

Independence Day

lol. nothing to do with independence day. it's my day.

well, i went out today. oh ya, before that, i'm trying to be nice to Firefox and hopefully Firefox will behave itself too to me.

1224 pergh. lelah nyawa ku ngejar bas rapid kuching ya. sandal nok ku bok bli ya pun asa2 mok putus. -,- kimen bena.

1308 haha. i saw you already. i saw you walking alone. i recognize you the moment i laid my eyes on you. haa.

aww pity you. oh, wait. 
i thought you wanna meet up? then where the heck are you going? :/

you lied. i texted you but you did not reply. eh, you did. but you replied me 30 minutes later.

aww too bad, i really wanna meet up. haha. *seriously?. 
- i mean it. i sounded crazy. trust me, i'm dead serious.

i intended to pick up my book that i had sent last Sunday for photocopy. but the shop is closed today. damn, what on earth am i thinking. it's public holiday today. Independence Day. duh.

next, me and Rowena planned going to Parkson. so, we went.

i bought another story book from Russell Lee today. ;) 
then. walked and walked, and walked.

lastly, we went back home.

i'm so dead tired. got exam tomorrow. and i had not prepared anything for that.

think i'm going to sleep soon. buhbye. gonna welcome September real soon. :)

un - sound

pergh, just when i thought you won't care about me, there you are asking for me.
i saw him on the chat list. ah yes, as usual, 
i thought ; " oh, him. pdulik la. like i care" 
it's been time since we last chatted. 
then, came out POP!
-it's HIM. duuh. 
where were you all this time? 
were you here to chat because of my changed profile pics on fb?

just give a stare.

ya, just look and do nothing. 

& no texting. get it? 

ah yeah! why i always forgot that we are not that real.

even though your friends already knew about us.

oh well, who am i compare to your girlfriend?

miserable is me

aaww shit! my google chrome has crashed. damn it. i tried to uninstall and reinstall it back. but it didn't  work! shit hundreds time. ugh! Google, how could you do this to me? now i am left miserable with Internet Explorer. and i'm sure you know well how much i hated Firefox. and oh, i forgot to mention, Internet Eplorer isnt being nice with me. i hardly can type properly. damn that thg is tryig to make me look rtrd! :( loookk wat i ttype! shuit.! stupid internet exprer. i alreay press hard to type, but still some lettr is missing. bodooo!!

ah yeah, i'm pissed off right now. i really really cant live my life like this without google chrome. but, anyway, imma tell ya, what i do today which is has nting to do with me being dumpd by google chrome.,
p/s : my typing is the caused from internet explorer attempt on makig me look retard.
i went out tody. with my friends. we went to satok. i met him accidentally. twice. damn.
i thought he was calling out my name. but i didn't look back. who cares. we are on unofficial relatioship.
i hope to move away from Demak a.s.a.p so that we could end this. me and him aren't going anywhere. AKU SKANDAL.
get it? that's what i am to you. and that's wht you are to me too honey.
ah yes, how can i forgot that you are the one who made us who are we today. you are the one that asked me to become your so called .. whatever .
let's call this off soon, okay?

am  still pissed off over google chrome for dumping me.,

Love

" love don't give us the promise of forever, 
but having faith on it makes us believe that there is. "

pink yeah?

pink yeah? haha. i loike this pic. ya. ya. i know. maybe it look ridiculous. i dont give a shit anyway. I LOIKE IT! haha. credit to MEEE! :)

what a bitch

wow. you sure had your other side of you unleashed. lol.
 i never know you are so bitchy. Bitchy, are you?

where are you?

A.S.A.P! i need you now. where are you? anyway ;
 i've been liking this quote that i had read from somebody's status on Facebook. and it's been my favorite since then. maybe because i'm single. lol.
okay the quote sounds something like this ; 
" I've kissed so many frogs. but none of them turned out to be my prince charming. "
 i think i changed the quote a bit and maybe it sounded a little weird. but somehow to me, it sounded something like that. and i like it, still. 
i'm soo dead tired today. i don't have enough sleep last night. moreover when i almost fallen asleep then Mimi closed all the windows which cause me difficulty in breathing. i cant stand it any longer that i had to go open the window and had some so-called Kuching fresh air. then, the night scares the heck out of me. i really cant sleep in peace. the lightning is frightening me. i really lacked of enough sleep. 
and the rest of today is history. i'm too dead tired to had it all told here.
and oh, my scandal? ah well, we met last Sunday. i went to his house. GULP. hold it there. we didn't do anything. 
seriously, even if we did, I WONT TELL IT HERE! ;p 
then on Tuesday around 12.30 am midnight, i went out for a late night tea with my guy friend, college mate and neighbor. only the two of us. and we didn't do anything also. we went out just as friend for a sip of tea and some chit chats, so what more can you expect? 
i stinks now, need to have my bath right away. buhbye.

Selalu Cinta

Kotak – Selalu Cinta

kau tanya, aku menjawab
kamu minta, aku berikan
ku sayangi kamu


ku bicara, kamu yang diam
ku mendekat, kamu menghindar
separah inikah kamu dan aku


bagaimana bisa aku tak ada di setiapmu melihat
sementara ku ada
bagaimana bisa kamu lupakan yang tak mungkin dilupakan
aku selalu cinta, selalu cinta


kamu hilang, aku menghilang
semua hilang yang tak kukira
jangan tanya lagi, tanya mengapa


bagaimana bisa aku tak ada di setiapmu melihat
sementara ku ada
bagaimana bisa kamu lupakan yang tak mungkin dilupakan
aku selalu cinta tapi kamu tidak
tapi kamu tidak, tapi kamu tidak


bagaimana bisa aku tak ada di setiapmu melihat
sementara ku ada, aku selalu ada
bagaimana bisa kamu lupakan yang tak mungkin dilupakan
aku selalu cinta tapi kamu tidak
tapi kamu tidak, tapi kamu tidak



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Slow Slow Jak. :)

Kotak – Pelan-Pelan Saja

ku tahu kamu pasti rasa
apa yang ku rasa
ku tahu cepat atau lambat
kamu kan mengerti


hati bila dipaksakan
pasti takkan baik
pantasnya kamu mencintai
yang juga cintai dirimu
cuma kamu


reff:
lepaskanlah ikatanmu dengan aku
biar kamu senang
bila berat melupakan aku
pelan-pelan saja


tak ada niat menyakiti
inilah hatiku
pantasnya kamu mencintai
yang juga cintai dirimu
cuma kamu


repeat reff


pelan-pelan saja


repeat reff


pelan-pelan saja
(lepaskan aku, lepaskan aku, lepaskan aku)
pelan-pelan saja



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DJ Earworm - United State of Pop 2009 (Blame It on the Pop) - Mashup of ...

yes! i enjoy listening to this song. very catchy. it's a combination of great songs.

psst * feels like want to give her wild side a kick. ;)

getting old and restless

yaaaahhh.. boring tahap gaban aieee! this morning i woke up then had my bath, do the laundry, then sapu bilit. rambut banyak gilak eh! bok jak marek ku nyapu. mok padah rambut aku nok gugur ya, x patut. maka ku lamak x makan megi. lelah jak ku nyapu, petang tok ada gik rambut atas lantai. pergh. then i had lunch with Rowena around 1 pm. then online. T_T nothing much on my news feed. 
it's raining here. perfect time for a NAP. :) but i just couldnt put my eyes to sleep.
then, what did i do? editing pictures. lol.
SIIIKDAAA KEJAAAA BHAAAA.. 

naaah, extra large skali ku ngkah gambar ku ctok. ngee. pa jak la.. skadar suka²


okai, updating on my so-called relationship progress. mmm. nothing. TOTALLY NOTHING. lol
he asked for my phone number, but i dont received any text or call from him. then, after sometime, he gave me his'. i didnt asked for his number.because i dont care much. because i'm not a TEXTUALLY active person. lol. mmm. depends who i am texting with la. i didnt see him yesterday, and so is today. dont know la later this night. aku x gago juak bjumpa ka sik ka. ada ku kesaah? 


* 5:20 pm
i wanted to hang myself bawah pokok kelapa. waaaaa.. T_T
dad just called me. aww, SNAP! it's about my last semester result. damn it! how did it get there? damn it. i wish i could just smack my head with something hard right at that moment. and at the same time, my ladees love clothes order had arrived. adoooh! dah ku kena lecture, kena brik bonus gik. caka li jak.. 
sorry dad. i promise, i'll make sure i excel better than last semester in the future. aduiiinaaa.. panas sia punya telinga wooo. uiinaa, kadapatan juga sia punya result sama sia punya bapak. adei..
SCREWED YOU AGAIN. tsk tsk tsk.

Lady Antebellum - Need You Now

dedicated to my whoever-will-be knight. I NEED YOU NOW! A.S.A.P! hear me?!

I LOVE YOU, MONDAY.

Yes! monday is being nice to me this semester. THANK YOU VERY MUCH. and now i'm staying in my room alone. :( my friends were off to college. i'm bored.

and hungry too. you know what, lately i've been thinking. about my so-called-scandal-relationship.

i felt a bit awkward. eek. dont know. ugh. maybe because i had considered him as friends. and i never expected more than that. God, tell me that i'm not ready will You?

eee, i'm not used to be in this kind of situation. ya lah, jadi spare orang. errk. apa kelas la jadi spare.

pergh. but like i said ; it is just something to keep me busy. and i dont really care how far or how long our so-called-relationship will last. seriously i dont give a damn. pa jak la. bjumpa pun mok secretly. mana2 kau jak la Labu. hahahaaa.

now where's my knight in shining armor??

please dont let me keep waiting. i'm getting old liaw. lol *seriously mean it*

FREAKING BORING and hungry too

lol. i'm fat enough already but still hungry. and my lappie has been running since afternoon. lol. poor lappie, i'll let you pass after this, after i am done. i got sore throats and feels like there's something under my tounge. T_T dont know what it is. and it pretty hurts. feels like i wanted to squeeze it. i got no class tomorrow. dont know what to do. nope! 
i should have know what to do tomorrow ; homework given by lecturers. eek! i am aiming 3 pointer and above for this semester. pray for me and wish me luck. 
mmm, okay, now i'm feeling the effect and signs of unrested eyes and minds. think i'm going to sleep soon. goodnite.

Eminem - Love The Way You Lie ft. Rihanna

HAHA. now this song is perfectly fit to those guys who is trying to play 3 wood behind their gf's back. lol.

and i seriously LOVE seeing them flirting with other girls.  -.- yeah, and talking about the guy who is obviously  cheating behind his gf's back, naah. i already expected him commenting on my pictures. kanji.. 

man, i read you like a book! are u sure you are not a BOOK? maybe because of my previous heartbreak had given me the advantage to understand guy more. ooh, i like that, and i'm thankful for the gift. :)

Woot! Woot!

woohoo! i'm showing progress, when i first met my used-to-be-crush, my legs were cracking. lol.
no la, i was just super nervous that i cant speak properly and i cant look him in the eye. i still remember that moment. heee . but i can now relax and not let myself look like an idiot. i guess i learnt. :)
thanks to my used-to-be-crush . i learned a lot. seriously A LOT. last night i met my erk, a guy friend. he said that ; nya gugup ngga muka ku tang relax jak. wakakaka. HIGH FIVE. 

KEKASIH GELAP

mm? say what? yep, you read it right. or in other popular term ; SCANDAL. hmm. why? idk . but i seriously is a secret to someone. okay actually, there's two people. yesterday night, i got "proposed" from someone i considered as friend. 

wow! that really shock the heck out of me. i thought he was kidding. erk. but i'm okay with that. it's just something to keep me busy. 

anyway, am still finding the real one, that really makes my heart pounds. hhmmm.. *sigh*

still waiting and wondering when will that special person will be sent to me.

okay, now that's one. i said there's two people. who's the other one?

alaa. that same old guy, my former manager. he's asking me out for a movie once he got back to Kuch for holiday. but i'm not sure when. but he seems BAHAGIA when i said YES. 

obviously, he's flirting with me behind his girlfriend's back. because i already did mention about his girlfriend and he seems like he dont care as long he can go out with me. hhmmm.

but hey, dont get me wrong. i'm no SLUT or BITCH. i just wanted to see how far men can go and cheat their girlfriend. and i'm not going to ruin myself. i'm still keeping my virtue for a guy that worth it. a guy God had promised me. :( dear God, i'm still waiting. please dont let me give up. i'm not strong enough.

latest update : the first guy i mentioned, just asked me out for a date. MATAI. hahaha

I LOVE GETTING FRIEND REQUESTS :)

I lovee it. :) and my Facebook profile picture did the trick. i noticed that since i'm using my current profile picture, i get friend requests everyday. i usually received 2 or 3 or more requests. 

but, there is a BUT. before i'm using my current picture, i got none. TOTALLY NONE.

for more than a week. i was so desperate to add more friends on my FB friend list that i had to send my request by adding people. lol. yes, i was sooo DESPERATE. idk why on earth am i thinking that way. gila. but anyway, like i said ; picture do the trick (of course i use my own picture la) and i'm lovin it. ;)

problems everyday

damn it. why it has to be this way?? adoohh! our plan is again, RUINED. pergh! i hate it. living in Kuching. everything.. transportation is student MAJOR problem. or maybe it's MY major problem. i always tease Rowena, " lain kali kita carik boifren nok ada kereta, senang kita mok bjalan " hahaha.. we had a good laugh, but i seriously mean it. lol. 
actually kmkorg plan mok kuar g nangga umah tek, dah janji ngan tuan rumah ya. but then, masalah transport. pergh!! kimen bena. call keta sapu - pegi damai la, dah ya gi tmn putri la.. pegi terminal la. FCUK. klak dah beli keta besar2 kedak AJ ya lak, busy la.. apa la.. sucks.
the owner of the house pulak, is off during weekdays. only available on weekend. nah. today is Sunday. both me and Rowena hoped to move in A.S.A.P after we go and see the house. now, our last option is, move back to Demak and ride on TCS bus to go to college everyday.
aawww.. snap! i hate scrambling with trillions of disrespectful junior just to have a seat on bus. and most of all i hate scrambling and make myself look childish. it's okay, just this month, hear me? this month only. i'll make sure and persuade my other friends to move into the house. dear house, please reserve yourself to ours, okay? i'll make sure you'll be ours next month. hang in there.

idk

idk, because i have no idea of what title should i put here. anyway, updating of what's happening today, ~ yoohhbi.. hari2 ku update blog since ku smpe d kuch eh. rajin nar. hari tok, masuk hari ke-3 aku, Rowena, Bebeng ngan Raymond pegi kolej gik pagi tok tek. sebab mok ambik jadual gik hari tok. sebab marek tlalu banyak orang d kolej g ambik jadual. sampe jak d kolej tek, yah, banyak skali jak orang bkumpul depan blok C sia nggu ambik jadual. adeeh..tok nang konfem lama keja tok. 

anyway, mok x mok, tpaksa la juak pegi ambik hari tok juak, yang penting ya jadual, mun kuar aher, tpaksa la, ney gaya. thank God, akhirnya kol 12 gia dah smpe turn aku.. actually i missed my turn, my waiting number is 40, but when i got there it's already number 41. eek! ya lah, gara2 duduk2 layan cdak Bebeng d kafe sia, madah bok no 30. pergh! nasib miss Irene ya bait. 

timetable d brik miss ngan aku tek, hari isnin ngan selasa ku xda kelas. HOORAY! x pelu ku gago pa baju formal apa mok d pake hari isnin. haha. but hopefully, my schedule stay that way la. then, pas dah dapat timetable, kmkorg pun angkat, pegi somewhere but not our rumah sewa. lol. ada la cita ya, malas ku mok emo2 pasal hal ya. k nyakit hati jak.

sampe jak d pasar, mula2 tek, kmkorg plan mok g tHe spring, since Bebeng dah kemukakan idea g kbox, dapat juak aku agak Big Apple, kedong ku ada coupon nya, tp coupon nya lom ku gunting dr calendar gik. lol.. tp c Rowena mdh nya xda duit. mm.. xpa lah. then, aku suggest ngan cdak nya pegi Sarawak Plaza. and Tun Jugah, cause i wanted to take a peek at Popular. i've been looking for this something. so, we walked along the Kuching waterfront there. nasib hari x panas gilak.

kayo2 d SP dah ya pegi Popular. at last. and i grabbed this :

yes! maybe some will criticise my choice of reading, and maybe to some of people, they may think that this book is for baby. but this is what i like. it is what makes me happy. i started reading this since i was in Primary 6. thanks to my friend, A. dari nya lah, aku minat baca buku tok. aku salu pinjam ngan nya dolok. hehe. i've been waiting for this Book 20, last June, aku ada pegi Popular carik buku tok, but not here in Tun Jugah la, aku agak Popular kat Parkson Miri sia, during Gawai holiday. but i dont see any of this Book. not even the 1st Book. macam dah sold out jak. somehow, i'm grateful to have the latest copy of this book.

then after i shopped there, we went back to SP, to Hartz Chicken Buffet. mula2 tek kmkorg mok pg The Food Gallery. tapi, xpenah agak sia. x pnde cmne sistem sia. hahaha.. sakai. but, it's also our first time at Hartz too. salu lalu sia, tapi x penah agak sia. so, apa gik, kmkorg 4 tek pun, memulakan operasi. wahaha..

me & Rowena bok pas makan dessert. 

dah puas makan sia, next kmkorg jalan g Parkson and x lama pas ya, balit rumah. abis cita.

hhmm.. ya, i think that's all. i'm already sleepy. gotta have enough rest. goodnite.

oh! sh*t! i forgot to do what my brother had asked me. damn it, he's been waiting since yesterday. adoi. but here i am, busy with my blog. and i even sempat post it here. -_-

oh my gaga..finally

pergh.. at last, ku jmpa juak ngan abg bomba padungan ya. wakakaka. i'm not excited, not nervous, NOTHING. besa2 jak. everytime i made contact with him, x kisah face to face ka, or on the phone ka, i naturally speak a bit ( okay, it's a lot ) like, kasar. ya,.

tadi time ku mok balit dari hostel demak laut sia pegi balit rumah, nya bok datang. aku greet nya, ~ Oi!. aku tek, benarnya mok plan mbak nya g raun d samariang sia, mok carik rumah nok kamekorg cari ya. but since it's already late, aku cancel la, malas ku mok nait moto malam2. nya madah, aku kecewakan nya. hahaha.. ada ku kesah? lol. i think he still have heart on me. too bad, i'm not and do not into you. i seriously cant consider you more. you are just a friend of mine. and that's it.
because i seriously and currently do not intend to involve in any relationship at the moment, - depends, but you? i'm sorry, i just cant.

anyway, aku ada bukak FB this guy, that i used to have a crush on. pergh. actually, it's more than just a crush. i really like him so much. he's Sabahan and my senior. nya ensem ka? idk. but he's okay la. okay looking. i still remember when i saw kissmarks on his neck,. pergh. hancur hatiku eh. :( dah la hari ya, aku ada hearing stage 3, - it's when you're absentism higher than 20%. hearing ya ku x kisah gilak. tapi since ku ngga kissmark nya ya, adoi.. mala jak ku pikir pasal ya. ya lah, duhal nya ada gerek, i thought he's single. :(

:: to be continued~
~maybe not.

fly up up in the sky

pergh.. there goes my money. sampe jak umah sewa nok d padah Bebeng ya, tuai rumah alu brik kontrak sewa rumah. well, no wonder la he's asking for a quite huge sum of money. and i have to ask my dad for an extra money to cover my pay for this house, adeh, x sampe hati ku koh..he works the heck out of him just to feed his family, x cukup ngan elaun, aku minta lagi duit aduhh.. i feel guilty..but anyway, i think it's a fair price. the house where i am staying now is, a bungalow. 

yes, BUNGALOW. the kitchen is broad. nang puas memasak, bilit pun besar juak, dah kena brik katil, blanket and pillow dah kena standby. got washing machine and television + Astro. too bad, xda channel Star World. HBO and yg swaktu ngan nya ada la. but what's depressing is that, transportation. jauh skali jak. sewa dah berapa.. aih.. malas ku mok padah gik brapa sewa 1 palak. dah g register semester d kolej tek. kena penalty RM50, sbb lambat register.

i met Mary - my bestfriend, classmate, schoolmate, we've known each other for a long time - at kolej. this semester will be her (6th) final semester, congratulations. and i did asked her to help us hunt for a house somewhere near college. so, nya pun ada la juak nanya ngan kwn nya, and GOOD NEWS, 

there is a vacant house with monthly rental RM650. great! so, i just have to find people who's interested. that's a thing. 

then there's a thing, my last semester result, = I'M SCREWED. aiee.. nang teruk ada jak. subjek ku.. pergh! jangan cakap la. bingung ku pikir banyak gilak benda.

anyway, hopefully that vacant house kmkorg hunted tadi ya, harap2 la kmkorg dpt. so i can move out from this bungalow A.S.A.P. if possible by this FRIDAY. bukan apa, sewa mahal gilak..transport gik, aku mok bayar broadband ku gik. naaah. ney gik duit k beli baju. *wink*

so, esok mok bangun awal g kolej, g ambik timetable, kakya gi nangga umah ya tek. umah bungalow tok tek, ku dah bayar actually half from the deposit required, but i'm moving out (hopefully la), and duit nok ku bayar ya consider HANGUS. :( duit.. duit.. sayang sekali jak. and i dont plan of telling my father that i found a new house for rent (if), cos aku x mok polah nya riso and gago. i'm sorry DAD, i love you.

and by the way, my fever is getting high. mesti gara2 masa ku lam bas ya, sejuk ilak. dah ya body temperature gik x tentu. ya lah.. blocked nose. i think i'm going to sleep with tissue stuck under my nose kali.

is Safe and Sound

oh..great. finally arrived Kuch at 7 pm. pergh. departed from Mukah at 7.30 am. it's a long journey. and a cold one. next time i'll make sure i doubled my shirt when i board on bus. sampe jak d terminal Kuch marek, nang terus menggigil and tketar2 gigi ku, sejuk ilak, aku nang x tahan sejuk. lemak jak banyak. huehuehue. and what's more importantly, ku dah sampe umah baru ku. :)

two just ain't enough

i'm done packing my things. but damn it. i have to bring more bags than i planned. 

susah na jadi mpuan tok. macam2 benda mok d pake. mun laki x banyak cita. pergh. sabar jak la.

anyway, tadi ada orang ya chat ngan aku rah FB, tapi time ya ku AFK. ku mandi time ya, gi pun adik ku pake laptopku. yaah, nang bagus alu  jak opening greeting nya ngan aku tek. nunggah aku DARLING. wow. nang x sedar dirik benar laki ya. maka dah ada gerek, terang2 status nya rah FB sia, gik juak berani mok klaka gia ngan aku. dah ya tek, siap komen profile picture aku gik ya. mun la gerek nya ada add aku (tapi aku xkan approve la, nasib kau la) mesti nya pikir aku dolok nok mgatal ngan laki nya ya. pergh. kau nang kiut, ada rupa, keja tetap gik ya, 

but obviously you're not my type. just by depending on your handsome look alone won't fool me. aok lah, nang ensem, tapi, sayang kau dah ada gerek and kesian ngan gerek kau ya, belakang nya kau flirting ngan orang lain. aku xmok mrusak relationship sapa2, cause aku paham gney asa mun aku kena polah gia ngan gerek ku. *even ku lom penah ada pengalaman gia* tapi mana2 mpuan xkan maok pun mun dpolah gia. actually nang dari before ku cuti semester ri ya dah nya bdarling2 ngan aku, aku pun layan jak la, and i admit it too, i felt a bit awkward because he used to be my high officer *i cant really tell you what job we do, i'm afraid he'll discover this*

but dah nya layan aku gia, aku pun layan juak la tek. but time ya, nya lom declare relationship nya lam facebook, and i was wondering if he's still with her gf which i know that (she's) studying somewhere at Peninsula M'sia. and i think few weeks before, i discovered that he uploaded his pics with a woman, which is actually his long time gf, idk how long they've been in a relationship, but for long as i know, time ku mula2 kenal & keja ngan nya dolok dah nya nang dah ada gerek (ngan mpuan tsebut ya tek), and not long after i discovered his new uploaded pics, nya declare relationship nya tek ngan mpuan ya, 

huhu, but terus terang ku madah, xda la ku makan hati. SERIOUSLY, just ku geram jak. ya lah tek, mun chat rah ym, mala jak mok webcam. kadang2 time chat pun ada juak chat dari nya nok berbau LUCAH. wahahaha.. LMAO. tapi ku xda la layan juak chat nya nok x senonoh ya.

past is past. you're just my experience. so thank you, I LEARNT.

uh..sempat juak layan blog malam tok. gotta sign off now, gotta wake up early tomorrow. goodnite.

 Let's pray with me before going to sleep.

Jesus Christ my God, I adore you and thank you for all the graces you have given me this day. I offer you my sleep and all the moments of this night, and I ask you to keep me from sin. I put myself within your sacred side and under the mantle of our Lady. Let your holy angels stand about me and keep me in peace. And let your blessing be upon me. Amen.

ugh! i hate feeling this way

i'm leaving in hours. hate it. 

anyway, aku molah kira2 tek, kira bajet untuk bulan tok la. 

pergh! brapa jak tinggal duit ku pas abis register, bayar sewa rumah, and my broadband bill, roughly in RM200 jak kot. T_T matai..i'm SCREWED!! xdpt kuar g enjoylah tok..waaaaaa! tension eh..yalah ko Mar, time cuti bukan main gik kuar duit, coba la ko simpan duit elaun time cuti ri ya. dapat juak ko pakey duit lebih ya k enjoy mun ko balit Kuch lak. damn.. *sigh* 

pagi tek ku bgun awal, before kol 7. kira awal lah ya. ku sapu rumah dah ya pegi mandi..and cuci semua nok ku blom cuci.. dah ya ku ngemas segala baju ngan harta benda ku k ku mbak balit g Kuch lak.

my Big Apple 2010 calendar, x boleh lupak ya. that would keep me in track..hhmmm.. what else huh? malam tok x dapat layan gilak ngan lappie, still have to make sure all of my things are ready..

mm, i guess, i'm done.. and i'll update you once i got back in Kuch.

can i stay forever?

pergh..i'm so tired.got back from church then had breakfast, then go buy things.. my neck hurts. maybe ku salah tido semalam. dah la tido aher gik ya. ne ndak, gara-gara layan game KFC Tucky².. huhu.. dekat kol 1 bok benti main. in a blink of an eye, hari tok dah 1 Ogos, FRiendship Day is today. and what's more depressing is, i'm leaving in roughly 39 hrs. ugh! i hate to leave! the first time i left my family was exactly in August last year, it was quite hard. cause i'm going to a big city without my family accompany me. :( i still remember, i tried hard not to cry in the bus. i pretended to be okay, like it was just a small matter. but really, that is the first time i ever stay away from my family for a long period of time. then once i arrived to where the hostel is, i called my dad, damn, i just cant controlled it. i tried hard not to burst into tears. i just couldnt help. but i adjusted with times and places, and i got used. i'm quite a flexible person actually. maybe this long holiday just makes me hard to leave my family. balit tok klak, adoh.. pening gik palak pikir tok. pasal RUMAH. aie.. dah ya c Bebeng gik padah mok quit.. ergh!! i'm done, and i'm going to sleep. i'm just so sleepy and plus the nice weather to sleep in, it's raining here in Mukah.