126th

Dad called me this morning at 8. he asked me to go and check for Immigration Officer vacancy and interview to see if i got any. so i did checked once i got home from college.  then, Dad called me again just now, and asked if i did checked. and he told me that my cuzz got a sms saying that she got i think it's a call for interview. sighhh..
i seriously don't know what to do now. well, yeah, except that assignment that i need to submit tomorrow. Sher, YOU LUCKY ASS. I envy you. ugh.. 
MY LIFE ENDS NOW. :"( pathetic me -.-"

AYO

FCUK assignment!! i'm going to sleep! AAARRRRRR!!

124th

just got back from picking sweet potatoes somewhere near here. haha. seriously, i'm bluffing.


okay, on the way home from robbing the bank this evening, i almost peed myself. gosh, i never felt so much retard like this before. uh ya, including the trip to Bako last semester, i pooped i think 6 times that day. serious shit. i almost canceled the trip, but with all strengths i tried to put up i finally made it to the toilet without shitting on my pants. thank GOD i can go jungle trekking without any stomachache. PHEW! my guard. i was really terrified if i peed myself while on the bus. if i did, that will be that day i would never ever forget, i probably wouldn't ride on that bus again! i seriously never feel so much stupider. 


oh dayemmmm.. i just remember that i got an ASSignment that is due this Saturday. and i haven't had my ass working on it. just great,i'm screwed. EPIC FAIL. 
FACEBOOK YOU STAY AWAY FROM MEEEEE!!

1 to the 2 to the 3

my 123th post (ehem, including all the comics and shared video) 
meanwhile, i'm listening to Adam Lambert's Whataya Want From Me and Jayesslee cover song - Officially Missing You, as my breakfast. yea, since i got only RM6 in my wallet, so am not going to feed my stomach this morning until i find some sweet potato to eat.
intended to borrow hair iron from the neighbor. but their door is closed. :/
damn, i think i gotta get one for myself rather than borrowing. well,i hate borrowing too!
oh neighbor, open your door please?
ooh, i just LIKE this Natural Breast Enhancement on Facebook. lol, 
and i just text my friend to accompany me go find sweet potato at the nearby woods.
gonna leave in half hour and off to college.

woohoo!

yay! CHEERS to another follower. so altogether now i got, uh, mm, THREE. 
so as to appreciate that person, i followed you back! you know who you are. *wink*


i skipped my microeconomic class today. hahahahaha. like i care. a big big A next to my name on Attendance paper for Microeconomic subject


i really got annoyed with this friend, my guard..(it was supposed to be OMG) does she have to call every person just to ask about things she has seen herself on the internet??
oh, puh-leaaseee.. i'm tired of seeing all that. oh guard. can't believe such people exist and i'm living in the same room as her! woohoo! FML i just have no idea. -.-
tsk tsk. 


omg! just now, we heard a loud bang just next to our room. :O and the stupidest thing is that, my friend responded to that noise, yelling back. my guard!!! FML! 
can't she just leave such thing alone without yelling or responding?? one day, she will get us into trouble if she can't keep her mouth shut! damn. 
you might think i'm a bad friend, but, just you wait until you got into my shoes, and become her friend. i just don't get her. every guy (ehem note that, every GUY) that she met and see, she would say this, "macam muka . ." again and again, and again and again and againnn. all daaaay looooong, 24/7, 4 weeks in a month, 12 months a year. HOLY SHIT.

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114th

I have not touch my SE G900 since Monday until this morning to re-charge it. 
awesome. i can totally survive without it. 
woke up this morning with total sore throat. ugh. i hate it. and i speak with a voice like a monster.
gahh. 
as usual every Wednesday, i only got class in the evening at 3pm. still got time, and hope the lecturer is absent today so i don't have to go to college. muahaha. i mean it.
just got back  from the cafe just right under our rented room for breakfast. geez, rented room huh? we actually plan on moving to a bungalow with fully furnished and complete with king size bed, cinema room, with pool table, bowling hall and much more just by the beach at Santubong there. lolololol
bluffing. ehem, mind me.


okay, my wallet is indicating red light. which mean i got only RM10 note left in my wallet. now what shall i eat later this evening? i guess i'll be going to the woods somewhere near here and go pick some yam or sweet potato.


oh, hey! i just realized i got one follower! so all together now i got, . . TWO followers. =,=
i set up this blog of mine just to fool around, and to tell craps of life within me. 
because i know, Bloggie is whom i can rely on. i can talk craps, talk shits, umm, enough saying, tell everything to Bloggie. so, i don't really care if i have no follower at all but anyway cheers for following. You know who you are. :) oh yea, i followed you back.
http://martinamorella.tumblr.com/
here's another blog of mine, Tumblr. so if you got one, make yourself feels like at home and do follow me, aite? i will you follow you back,. :)
okay, enough with promoting, i just got a text from my friend, crashing my hope of hoping my lecturer is absent. great.

113th

FLU = mucuos+sore throat(-puffy eyes) okay i'm not good with formulas and i suck at MATHS!
i tried few times logging in to my Tumblr. but it took ages to open my dashboard. and still can't open until now. darn. 


hey, new progress, since i like stalking peoples in FB, i finally found that cutie my friend admires, i mean his FB.
HAHA. it's undeniable, i'm good at stalking. lol. and it surprised me, cause me and him got lots of friends in mutual. and i tell you what, i'm not going to tell that cutie's name on FB to my friend.


omg, enough torturing FLU, i'm sick like hell now! *_*

i wish i could just squish this lovable little creature. <3

okay, i think i'm going to . . sneeze,  no, yes sneeze, okay sneeze, no, yes, sneezeeee, not. FUCK YOU FLU

112th

i just don't get it. what is so cool with Jason Derulo's, Ridin Solo?? 
it drives me nuts every time my friends play that song. ugh. 
*omg, they keep on repeating that song. 
kill me. come on! that song SUCKS!

111th

hoho. it's been awhile. been busy with my newly made tumblr. i deleted my first tumblr.


had a nightmare last night. i wish it was a sweet dream though, but since i dreamed of that jerk, it wasn't that nice anymore. and actually it was a really weird dream. i dreamed as if i just broke up with that jerk, and i was heartbroken. (duuhhh!) then, i wore a t-shirt that has LOL printed in large size at the back  of the t-shirt. and it was really LOL. his friend noticed me wearing the t-shirt, and then he came up and coincidentally singing a song titled LOL. i was half conscious while dreaming.
then, it's like some kind of fate, so he came up to me, trying to persuade me. during my half consciousness, i was like "what the fuck, man!" .then he keep on persuading me and i was like you know, when a girl sulking. it was actually sweet tho, but damn, it was that jerk. 
wait, don't tell myself that i'm starting to fall for him again? ugh! noooooooooo.
oh my gosh. what the fuck man?

110th

yay! i just submitted my application to Unisel. i hope i got accepted, and let the offer letter fly off to my father and let him eat that letter. haha i really hope for that, i mean my application of course.
oh, i'm so sleepy. goodnight blogger.

108th

i don't know what title can i give. 
and Yay to me! i just done my rosary prayer. i think it's my first rosary prayer of the year. -,-
how about you? * pointing finger* and you and you?  (catholic only)
and i'm going to keep praying daily. because the rosary prayer was only complete if i recited the whole week. i'm gonna need to steal some time to pray rosary.

Dilemma

that's it, i've made up my mind, i'm going to apply myself at UNISEL.
i know it's a bit late now, since i'm now in my 3rd semester. but what's the point if i can't do well in what i'm not good at? i'm good in English. *cough. um, maybe not too well. but at least it's the subject i can score at.
but here's another thing that's bugging if i ever quit to continue to Unisel - my Mara loan.
i hate bugging my parents with this problem of mine. ugh
i look through my pictures in my laptop, then i saw this screen shot of programmes that i had saved, and i saw the course i'm interested with, and the fee cost only RM13.5k.
fcuk! way cheaper than my current course. *snort* and the course duration, and i did other comparisons too.
then that made me thinking, that i'm going to apply myself in Diploma in TESL, and will quit if i ever got accepted (and if my dad would let me) and yeah, age been bugging me like hell, since my other friends are now either graduating diploma or taking degree.
okay so now, i officially say, FUCK AGE! haha, i'm going to further my studies no matter what.
for now i need to pray and ask God to give me signs whether this is the best for me.
it's the month of rosary prayer, and i have not pray once. pathetic. i got my rosary with me, but i never pray. gotta spend some time pray. and ask for signs. 

Struck The Film

okay, this is a short film. here's a little about it
On his way to work one day, Joel (Bodhi Elfman) is impaled through the chest by a three-foot arrow. But it doesn’t harm him. And it won’t come out. So Joel has to learn to deal – both with his newfound protrusion, and his own painful loneliness. He tries to go to work, to date women, but no one seems ready to accept his strange flaw. Little does he know, his life is about to change forever..
this is one of sweetest movie i have ever seen! and its really inspiring. omg, this is just so sweet. 
i just can't wait to get struck by cupid. hey, cupid, we need to talk about your aim. 

Someone Somewhere - Jason Reeves

i believe somewhere someone is made for me. i'll wait ;) 
just don't take to much time to send him to me. make it faster, okay?

Someone is waiting
someone who understands exactly how you feel
exactly how you feel..
someone is dreaming
someone is hoping just that this will be the day
that this will be the day..

that you take your eyes off the ground
out of the blue
and see that someone is looking right
back at you..

maybe that someone's me
maybe it's meant to be
lovers, strangers
sometimes bombs fall quietly..
maybe it's chemistry
maybe it's hard to see that someone is the right one
i hope that someone is me..

nobody's perfect
nobody's perfect no one really knows the truth
all we've got's a point of view..
and there's too many questions
there's too many questions and too many reasons not to try
there's too many reasons not to try..

but you should take your eyes off the ground
out of the blue
and see that someone is looking right
back at you..

CHORUS

where ya gonna go from here??
cause everything you need's out there
and you can have it if you dare
if you dare
there's someone somewhere..

oh flu.

i googled for symptoms of flu. and i opened the Oxford dictionary to find out what does flu and fever translates. yeah, i can't make out the difference between flu and fever. geez! 
and yeah, i know now. and  i hope i'll remember this always. -__-
i got flu. been sneezing like hell. and the mucus from the nose, you just never fail me to come out from my nose every time after i had my shower. thanks i feel so much retard now.
google, you're very teasy eh? i typed flu symptoms and you come out with swine flu in Bahasa Melayu. babi lu. you're so pig. *snort*
Test 3 will be held the week after next week. which is the first week of November.
and no more test except for final exam. note that, FINAL. on December. 
my goodness, i haven't working on my assignment yet! screwed!
dayemm! just checked out the calendar, my Titas assignment is due next week! and my Professional Ethics is i don't remember when! luckily it's a group assignment.
i'm soo SCREWED. like always.
omg, can't believe Paramore's rocking out at KL tonight and at this very hour. 
and a very happy birthday to my beloved besties. Vava Pb Bulan. *go search for her Facebook!
i hope her to get married before me, so i can laugh at her face and show her that i'm enjoying my single life. geez. so mean.
gah! mucus! can't you just disappear?! i just finished a box full of tissue just to wipe you! *snort

101th post

geez? my 101th post? 
i thought of cutting my hair short. like real short. 
wonder if short hair looks okay with me.
seriously i got depressed with my hair. ugh. i wanted to keep it long. but.
should i keep it long and curl it this Christmas or just cut it short so i won't bother to do anything with it?
i think i maybe look cute if i cut it short like this. *grin

omg this internet line is fucking slow. it took forever to download even just a song. pfft.
and guess what, i gonna have to pay extra for this shit since my usage exceeded 5gb this month.
awesome. i really need to grow money from a tree.

that's it. i'm putting my books and notes aside! i'm totally done with all that stuffs!
i hate you! hear me? i got two test tomorrow. so, kill me right away.
procrastinating is really getting the better of me. wow, great job Martina. *tap on the shoulder*
dayemm. i'm really good at procrastinating. try me.
still blurred with Twitter stuff. tweet me?

that's how you do it

ya, keep doing it. don't stop. you know what's right then, just keep doing what's the best.
you're what people called FRIEND. you just go out like that like i'm nothing.
can't you at least asked, " are you coming", or "you want us to tapau for you?"
FRIEND. hmph.
just do it, i'm not offended. i smiled to the ears when you do that to me. thanks for making my day.
cibai!

grr

o my gaga! i walk the blogshops just now, and i saw this cute blazer @ grazioso blogshop. with quite a fair price. and also a cute dress. :) and, and . . and oh, a cute vintage satchel. :) grr.
o my gosh. i can't help myself! i'm drooling. i want that satchel! grrr.
i want it so bad! like real BAD. and oh, darn, a nice jeggings too. grr. this really makes me bite my nails. ugh.
and oh, about that blazer i've been wanting so bad, well, i haven't own it, but i saw this senior in my college wore it! dayemm! somebody has first wore it. :/
o my gosh. this is truly unbelievable!

if it hurts

i'm completely lost. i'm all about that peer issues. seriously.
i don't know la. or maybe it was just me.
i'm very silent these few days. i don't talk a lot, especially to this one friend. *sigh
she were speaking as if i'm invisible, and that she can see right through me.
i even start to wonder if i'm alive. last time, they were planning on an outing. they just planned on without hearing from me. 
but i know i won't be left alone, and i know how awkward it would be if i go out with them.
and thanks to my other friend who's staying at the hostel, at least i got company.
and the day were just me and her. we went to other place without THEM.
i actually almost gave up, you see, as in my previous post, i'm not happy. 
for now, i can't seem to turn to my so-called friends room mates. 
can i blame them? or should i blame myself?
to be true, i'm not angry, not pissed, or hurt at all. i just don't understand them.
seriously i'm worried. 
i don't know why and what is the point of being worried.
i'm too a bit frustrated being treated like this. imagine, we have the same class and i waited at the college, sit all by myself with headphones stuck on my ears looking at people like an idiot for two hours for class to start as well waiting for them to come but they didn't. and what makes it even worse is that i know it from a friend and i weren't inform of their absence by themselves.  great. just great.
what's the point of keeping my number then if they didn't even bother to text me and tell me anything about it?
yeah, i'm frustrated. but no, i'm not pissed, just frustrated.
thanks, for the hint-like. i got it. my previous post is linked to this post. it's related.
that's why i googled for uni's and colleges and jobs last night.
gosh, i don't know how long can i put up with this.
i need signs. i need someone who can inspire me, someone who has the aura of uplifting my spirit. i need someone who can speak to me and tell me something good.
lately, i've spent a lot of my time alone and thinking to myself.
*sighh..lotsa thoughts running..

i sighed a lot

sigh..
geez. do i need to sigh first?
i'm having a lot of issues lately.. student's life..
gah.. oh ya, i've wanted to post something since last night, but blogger isn't being nice with me last night, idk why. it really pissed me off.
anyway last night too, i googled for my future. geez.
i looked through somebody's pic, suddenly i got interested with Civil Aviation.
and i tried googling for related courses in aviation.
and i found UniKL. and i found courses like Diploma in Aircraft Maintenance Technology,
Diploma of Engineering Technology in Aeroplane Maintenance.
but the requirements failed me. sigh..and geez, Aviation?? woot! so so so not me.
and suddenly, i remembered of my cousin in Unisel. so i googled Unisel, and look through its courses, and of all courses, i got interested with Diploma in TESL. okay this one fits me. well, since i favorited  English language (though i must admit that i'm not super good with my English yet) and the requirement fits me. 
but then, lots of thoughts came running my mind. sigh..
if i applied there and got accepted, then i have to start all over again as junior. damn, i'm not getting any younger and i have to start again? my other friends now are either already hold a diploma in their hands or taking degree now, and on the other hand, i just started my first semester taking diploma at the age of . . . grrr.. ohhh. geez.. where have i been all this time? what have i been doing?? sigh..
then, i thought of my dad. i really pity my dad. even though he worked in the government sectors doesn't mean we can live well now without all the money problems, i really don't want to burden him with my problems. you know, flight cost, study loan agreement and lotsa other documents. if we're rich, . . .
sigh.. money again. it's always about the money.
sighhh..
restarting all over again won't be a problem, but the money . . hmmm..
a lot of consequences i have to consider. 
i just not only browsing for studies opportunity, but jobs also in government sectors.
hmmm.. i know i've not been a very pious person. who am i anyway..
i seriously care about my family, my mom, and my dad especially.
i really don't want to add any more money problem to them.
for now, i wish my younger siblings study well, and make sure they don't follow the footsteps of mine, i really hope, right after they got their results, they won't delay their times of continuing their studies. that's my prayer. i hope God would hear me this time.

CBA

ugh! i'm sooo not in the mood of doing this so called college homework!
i hate it. i'm doing homework for Etika Profesional @ Professional Ethic. well, this subject is not too hard to study, but i seriously began to hate this subject, or maybe the lecturer for giving this nuisance. 
well, thanks a lot, because i hate it very much.
i've started doing this homework since this afternoon, and i haven't finish it yet.
out of 10 questions given (only asked of giving definition) i only finishes 3.
and i have to submit it tomorrow.
well, the lecturer didn't really asked the students to submit their work, but i feel obliged to submit it. and the morning class, ugh! i seriously hate this subject now!
i really got the CBA. a severe form of laziness! >:(
CAN'T.BE.ARSED

i say blah blah blah

it's been time since my last post, and i haven't post anything for this October. 
the truth is that, i'm a bit lazy to post anything now.
last Sunday, i went to tHe Spring. YAY! i went there with Hamizah. and it's been time too since we last hang out together, so i'm really glad that we can go out together that day.

well, ya know, we went for a movie there at MBO, then just walk around there, and of course, i couldn't miss out ; Big Apple Donut! yummy. 
while we were enjoying our donuts there, i saw this guy, wearing yellow football t-shirt. i never met him before, but i think i know him. yes, i know him because i had him in my Facebook friend list. gahh!
talking about friend list. i had removed a few peoples from mine. and which kinda puzzle me is that, i was removed too by this guy. i don't know why. i thought he made a new account. but no, he obviously removed me. whatever the reason is, i don't give a damn and i never offended anyone including him. it's his account, so he can add/remove whoever he want to.
who am i to piss off for being removed. 
okay, frankly now, i don't care if anyone wants to remove me from their friend list, well, yeah, since we don't really comment, wish or whatever things on our wall. 
even we bump into each other, do we really say Hi ? we don't even flash a smile.
to some people, all they care of is to add many friends as possible. 
me? well, i used to add people too, but now i realized, what's the point of adding people you barely know, or total stranger? do we really want to get to know each other?
simply take the example of my birthday, at that time, i have 970+ friends on friend list.
but how many of them who wished me on my birthday? 
out of 970+ friends, only 60. where's the other 910+ friends?
well, i don't really mad or pissed or frustrated. but the thing is, what is the real point of having too many friends on Facebook? do you really are friends with all who added you/you  had added? no, right?
they only want to be friends on Facebook, not in real life.
have they ever comment on my status? have they ever comment on my pictures? have they ever write on my wall? have they ever wish me Happy birthday? have they ever.. nothing!
pergh. well, they were quite lucky since i'm going to let them stay parasiting on my page. because i'm too lazy doing all the deletion. now, i seriously would not add anyone ever again. except the people i really know. but i would still approving friends request if any.